Monday, 27 February 2017

8 Week Challenge Update (the first two weeks)

Firstly I just wanted to say thank you so much to all of you for the support and encouragement I have received after my last post (if you missed it, you can read it here)! It means so much to me and has definitely motivated me to try even harder.

Monday, 13 February 2017

Dear Me... Dear depressed, unmotivated, unhealthy me... It's time to change!

This body is not the result of pregnancy or child birth. I was quite happy with my post pregnancy and birth body. I looked great, I felt great and I was proud that I was able to stay active during my pregnancy and keep up a healthy diet.

This body is the result of neglect, laziness, poor time management and organisation, a lack of motivation to look after myself and broken promise to myself of never doing this to my body again.

I could not be more disappointed in myself. I have been at this point in my life before and I swore... I SWORE to myself I would never be there again.. yet here I am. Lazy, unhealthy, unmotivated and depressed because I let myself get to a point where I knew I would be unhappy.

Please do not tell me I am being too hard on myself because I am a mother.

I have been a mother for ten months now and the fact that I have put everything else above my own health is just unacceptable. I can be just as amazing a mother to my son (probably even more so) whilst looking after myself as well. It is possible, there are lots of mothers who do it. I just have to get myself out of this rut and back to the person I am. Back to the person I want to be again. The happy, healthy, active, positive and motivating woman I am! I used to inspire people but I can't imagine inspiring anyone in my current state.

On Monday, February 13, I go back to me.I have my schedule all planned out. Sure, I have a baby, it isn't always going to work out exactly how I want it to but if I want to be healthy and happy, I will do my damn best to get everything I need done.

Instead of sitting on my phone scrolling through Facebook and Instagram because I'm "too tired" once I get Achilles to sleep, I will cook myself dinner (I have been skipping dinner most nights for 3-4 months now), I will prepare my food for the next day so I do not buy a bacon and egg bagel and jumbo coffee from the cafe near work ... followed by a blueberry or raspberry muffin and then a chicken and salad sandwich or Chicken and Chips from woolworths for lunch.

Yep.. that is how I am living right now.. and sometimes I sit and wonder how I got to this point. It is actually quite obvious and I need to start being real with myself. I need to STOP using being tired as an excuse. I chose to have a child and I will probably be tired for the next ten years at least (maybe more if we decide to have more children!). Being tired is not an excuse to not look after yourself, to put yourself and your health first.

I've seen this going around a lot lately and it could not be more true of me right now.

My cup is so damn empty, I couldn't feed an ant. And I did it to myself.

I know what it takes to nourish your body properly and give it what it needs, I am studying to be a personal trainer and I have studied for hundreds and hundreds of hours about nutrition. It is not that I don't know what to do..I have just chosen to be lazy and give in to feeling tired when in fact if I got off my ass and looked after myself properly, I probably wouldn't be tired because my body would have what it needed to survive the day.

Today, I start running an 8 week challenge for my team as work for practice for when I am a PT. I am joining in because not only is it important to me as a personal trainer to practice what I preach, but it is also important to me that I feel good about myself so that I am able to help other people to feel good about themselves too because I know how horrible it is to not feel good about yourself for a very long time.
Please encourage, support and check up on me (although I will be posting updates on my @talkhealthytome instgram, my snap chat at: tahanalee and our Facebook group here).

Are you like me and guilty of not looking after yourself?!

Keep smiling

Tahana xo

Wednesday, 1 February 2017

Life In... January

What a messy crazy month!

It started with flying back to Brisbane from Townsville on the very first day of January which now seems like at least three months ago even though it was a mere 30 days! I think I mentioned last month that Achilles was such a good flyer! He slept the whole way home!