Tuesday, 21 July 2015

How I lost 20kg and got my life back

The trigger: Being diagnosed with depression for the second time in my life.

I wholeheartedly and 100% attribute my diagnosed depression to poor health & lifestyle.

Before I started this 'journey", I had never told anyone the doctors told me I was depressed - I kept it to myself... I thought it was a bad thing.

Looking back now, both times I was diagnosed I wasn't active in the slightest (I could have actually been called a couch potato because that's all I did), I wasn't looking after myself and my diet was beyond horrible - almost every meal was fast food with soft drink (soda) and I ALWAYS had desserts and treats - DAILY..

The contrast in lifestyles.... I used to drink every weekend when I was younger.

My whole lifestyle was full of negativity and I put MYSELF in that situation. I never wanted to leave the house, I would constantly cancel on my friends but then feel lonely and like I had no one. It was hard but looking back, ridiculous that I made myself feel that way.

Of course, there was other contributing factors I had no control over however, being unhealthy and inactive makes dealing with certain things a lot harder. Whilst every case is different of course, and I am not saying all depression is caused by or attributed to poor health but I think being healthy and staying active is the best way to keep a happy and positive mind frame.

Lifting weights helps me feel strong physically and mentally

I never took the medicine prescribed to me by the doctors. I went home and looked at the pills and decided I didn't want to treat my depression with a pill... I wanted to be happy on my own. It was MY fault I was feeling like this. I am in control of MY own emotions and happiness.

I will literally try any form of exercise and I have grown to love yoga!

I made the decision right then and there to make many drastic changes in my life. I ended an unhealthy relationship (that afternoon and moved a week later), I found myself a personal trainer and started exercising everyday - I started off with three personal training sessions a week and on the other days I would run and walk for as long as I could. I fed my body the food and nutrients I knew it needed. Even though we can never escape negativity , these days, I am able to deal with things a lot better than I used to. My whole mind set is in a very positive place.

Spending time outdoors with beautiful things makes exercise worth it!

I started on a very basic diet as I knew if I made it simple for myself, I would stick to it and be able to form a routine. At the time, I didn't realise how important it was to keep fat in your diet (I found that out the hard way but that's a whole other post) so my diet consisted of a lot of eggs, brown rice, vegetables, chicken breast, tuna and fruit. I didn't track anything, I just fed my body good, whole, healthy foods!

The change in my attitude and energy levels changed pretty fast. I went from watching TV for hours a day to watching none. I hated being inside and took any chance I could to get out and about. I joined an amazing gym and loved it so much I would get up at 5am to do my cardio so I could concentrate on my weight training at night. The contrast between my new and old lifestyle was incredible and I knew I was doing the right thing for my health and well being.

Not just smiling on the outside any more :-)

Over a year has gone by now and I have been no where near perfect and am no where near where I want my body to look like but in regards to health and happiness, I am exactly where I want to be. I make the right choices every day for my health. If you follow my instagram page, you know I indulge every now and then - I don't believe in putting unrealistic restrictions on myself... I love donuts and Nutella so if I want them, every now and then, I will have it! It just doesn't have to be an every day or every week thing. Discipline plays a huge part in getting healthy...especially when you've been the opposite for so long. When you're exercising a lot, it helps because the last thing you want to do is exercise just because you want a chocolate bar... you want to exercise to get results and that treat isn't going to get you there.

One year, four months, over 20kg down...

The numbers no longer mean anything to me... I rarely weigh myself. I track progress through photos and measurements. I lift weights and have muscles so there is no way the scales are going to say what I want them to say.

It takes a lot to do this... its not easy, it takes a long time and you have to stick to it forever. Don't set yourself unrealistic goals or restrict yourself. It's NOT a diet.... it's a LIFESTYLE. How you have to live for the rest of your life.

When people see me eating chocolate once a month they will be like "aren't you on a diet"...well there is no way I would have been able to be on a diet for the last 16 months! I changed my life and weight loss was a huge bonus of that.

I'm happy, healthy, strong, fit and completely content with where I am!

If you have any specific questions for me, please leave them in the comments below!

Keep smiling!

Tahana xx

Instagram = @talkhealthytome


  1. Wow! What an amazing journey Tahana!! You look fab, and you totally inspire me to get back to the gym most days!! Keep up the amazing work lovely!!

    Mel x | Loads of Lifestyle

  2. Wow Tahana! What an amazing post! I'm sorry I didn't see this sooner. You know I have been tracking your amazing progress since the beginning and I'm so proud of how far you've come, and so impressed by your awesome attitude towards health and fitness which has been so inspiring to all of those around you as you can see from the Talk Healthy To Me Facebook group!!! You should be so proud of how far you have come, and continue to progress each day!!! :) You look amazing!!!!!!!

    Sarah | Bows & Pleats

  3. Such an amazing post Tahana! You inspire me to work hard & change my lifestyle too :) there's no such thing as diets, it's all lifestyle! �� keep going girl, you are killing it ♡

  4. Incredible and so very inspiring! Thank you for sharing your journey with the world; I am more than certain it will help others in many ways! xx

    Daniela | MissNewBeauty.net

  5. wow really awesome even i need to do something in this way i need to do best exercises to lose weight

  6. Hi! You look great! I think exercising does help with depression. I workout at home. I almost do any kind of exercise too, but I do have limitations. Eating in moderation is the key. I also agree if you tell yourself you are on a diet, it will make you fail.

    Penny Flowers @ Orange Theory Fitness Elk Grove

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  8. Wow! You look amazing, bet you feel great! :)

  9. What an amazing journey! You are looking amazing and your out look looks just as good. Keep killing it girl. :)


  10. Wow! You made the right decision!! taking care of yourself and changing your life! you look gorgeous and your smile is so cute! Well done, you must be proud of yourself!

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